Who said we have to suffer all our life ? I got this questioning going on and on inside my head, since many years now, since as far as I can remember. Hatred and violence, all one in one, hand in hand, marching in the streets, in our lives, in our head, why all this ? Do I have a control on that ? It occured to myself that, yes, we do have a control on what goes in and out of our head. It takes a whole lot of will, but it is possible to make our own life happy and hatredless. I have had violence and furious anger in my heart since such a long time now, I do not even remember what it is to be at peace. What if the only person and thing to blame is myself, my own true self ? What if I have been my own destructor all these years ? What if I have continued to go further and further in this hate on purpose, but unconsciously ? The human self is such a destructive one, but can also be so positive and constructive. Can I beat my monsters ? I guess the only one who can answer this is me, Annie.